The Conway Corner

"A man can do what he wants, but not want what he
wants." -Arthur Schopenhauer

Woody Allen asks Annie Hall at a party with all of her friends in attendance, after hearing their respective careers and coinciding artistic endeavors, "how come all of your friends are on their way to becoming someone else?" I look around and see a city overloaded with people who have artistic endeavors. I'm one of them. We, No. 11, are some of them. Everyone wants to express themselves creatively, but nobody wants to pay them for it. Or not enough people want to pay them. Me. Us. Not enough people want to pay us to do this thing we do. Yet. I don't mind being on my way to being someone, because everyone is always in the process of becoming, but I don't like the possibility of being stuck in some first stage of becoming. I want to at least have a ticket to get on the train, even if its too full more me now. The ticket line is just so damn long...Maybe its a good thing that more people are expressing themselves artistically. Sadly for me, the result is a lack of need for someone to express for them and provide a vicarious experiece. I want to create theatre, and I don't want it to be my secondary vocation.

But, that is how most 'actors' live. They are on their way. I'm on my way. But we, No. 11, are on our way, and we'll get there. And then where will we be? Hopefully, we'll be able to define ourselves by what we want, and have that be what we are.

Written by Mitchell Conway